I have been asked about the 'tools' I mentioned in my earlier post.

There are many.
The most painful exercise was the FORGIVENESS DIET.

100 times a day, for 7 days, I had to write the same sentence over and over again.
"I now forgive ............. completely and I am free".

Such hard work.
At the end of the week, I was numb with the emotions I had experienced.
Working with the affirmation was positive but, in reality, did little to break the patterns that bound me.
At the end of the diet, I would have forgiven anyone !

As always happens, I found myself in the company of ......., a few months later.
And we bumped into each other regularly after that.
A relationship began to grow.
I noticed how different I was this time.
Listening instead of speaking.
Talking when I would have been silently seething.

We were able to relax with each other and both realised something had moved for us.

Next, I began to forgive myself.
I was able to let go of the guilt I felt when I remembered some of my actions as an angst ridden teenager.
So easy, when I saw/knew the truth.

That clumsy, boy/man thing was 20 years ago. So long that he bore no resemblance to the man I was becoming during this period.
It, simply, wasnt me.
How could I be angry or have energy on a small child who knew know better ?

Things began to fall into place quickly after this revelation.
Nowadays, when the bile in me rises, I stop to 'breathe' myself.
Realise that I am responsible for how I feel and change my thoughts to be more kind and/or loving.
When I notice the mood hanging around, I pray, meditate do anything it takes to 'change the energy'.

I am finding a peace within myself.
Due to the work I have done and knowing that the people who have hurt me have made me a stronger, more thoughtful person.

Adam Fairclough and Alison Gelfand, I acknowledge and Thank You.

I Thank and Acknowledge myself even more.